The Power in Ritual for

Self-Connection

Gently Reconnect.

I did something out of the ordinary this week.. instead of sitting on my balcony or quiet corner lounge, I went for a sauna, took my journal, book, cards, pen and cacao… into the sauna…

The cacao stayed hot longer than usual!

A little background for you – my hips and TMJ muscles have been very stiff and sore… and my intention this week was to enquire and be curious about what I was holding there, and to let it ‘sweat out’ of me… to gently be let go and leave my body…

Though each week, I do gain lovely insights to my own humanity – my shadow and my light – this week I feel was a special one..

I started my usual writing, enquiring about the pain, about what was being held there, about what by body needed to release to feel free.

I realised I was in ‘freeze’, that these muscles were frozen in time, unable to move – unable to choose what is good for me or choose what I need (movement, stretching, stepping out and away).

I discovered my “I Can’t”.

Someone else’s energy was enveloping me, it was my own panic, sadness,and  overwhelm that was stuck, held in and too much…

My choice then is to release it, find ‘space’, be ‘open’, ‘flexible’, ‘light’… FREE.

…. and then I discovered my ‘I CAN’!

To release the heat, pain, toxic, freeze…the exhaustion, noise and fullness…

To feel the warmth of the sun on my face and the air on my skin and the joy in the air!

And so , this became my ‘goal’ or intention for the next part of my practice.

“Call it in.

Call what in?

Freedom, Ease, Lightness, being Unbloated, spacious.

All of this.

Call it in.

Allow it.

Move it.

Rejoice in it.”

So, beginning the intuitive/soul/heart/inner-wisdom part of my Ritual, I simply opened to a page in ‘Services for Young and Old’ (pictured below), and read what was there for me. As usual, there were profound and beautiful words, guiding me to Grace and Love.

What I loved here was ‘take my gifts of love and use them for  thy service’…

That was a beautiful uplift for me – using my gifts for God’s work..

What came next was so unexpected…and also a stunning example of inner knowing, intuition and ritual at work!

For those who have experienced my work, this will be of no surprise.. but for those who have never experienced my Kinesiology work, stay with me… 

I asked myself if there was a time in my life that is related to what is happening in my body…

Yes!

When I was in the womb. 

When I was one month in the womb! At about 6 months in the womb, my Paternal Grand Mother died of cancer, and I know there was much grief and sadness in this time.

So, at one-month in the womb, what I felt from my Mother – all the bio-chemical changes of her sadness and grief… her freeze! My Mother’s ‘stuck’ while I was in her womb.

I had experienced my Mother’s ‘I can’t’ all that time ago, and it is informing my body now.

I was/am carrying my Mother’s ‘I can’t’ energetically.. and physically…

So, I asked myself what I needed to release this – luckily I needed to ‘sweat it out’… in the sauna.

I needed to ‘honour’ this ‘freeze’ – both then and now… with a good sweat!

With this in mind, I drew the next oracle card, from Inna Segal ‘Mystical Healing’ Pack – ‘Practice  Positivity’ (#23) – encouraging me to take another perspective, to adjust my point of view, look through a different lens…to be vigilant with my thoughts! Yes, great advice!

So, then I wonder What I Need for Support in this change? 

I pull another card – ‘Show Self-Respect’ (#29) – listen to the cycles of my body and inner voice, to discern what is healthy for me. It’s time to discern what is stopping me from self-respect/love.. what personal lies am developed in childhood… even at 1 month in the womb!

Yes to this!

At this point I need a little encouragement, so I pull another card – this time from Laura Bowen ‘SaltWater’ Reading Cards. Out came ‘The Turtle’, (#35) – Instinct.

This is a card of affirmation – to follow my instinct – in a time of change (big waves, storms, big oceans) and to go with the pull of change or change of direction, to follow my dreams…

In other words – do what I am drawn to! 

The only way to get out of ‘freeze’ is to move – from ‘danger’ to ‘safety’…

Here, the ‘danger’ is the feeling, a reaction to what is happening around me now, that I have no control over… just like those feelings when I was 1 month in the womb!

Moving to safety must include trusting my intuition, my instincts, what I am drawn to… what is holding me captive in freeze… can only be released by trusting my inner wisdom – trusting the direction that I am going!

I spend time reflecting, breathing, being curious and filled with gratitude for the time I spend with my inner-self – my wisdom….my body and spirit wisdom…

I spend time in gratitude with my heart for welcoming these insights and learnings… and my body for speaking truthfully and wisely.

My weekly ritual of silence, candles, journaling, oracle cards and silence are life changing – heart mending, spirit lifting and body transforming.

And, then I got out of the sauna, having sweated out a lot of ‘stuckness’ and ‘panic’… feeling different, lighter, more spacious, more ‘me’.

If you would like help with any of the above ideas, words or feelings – book a session with me – release the old fears, judgments and beliefs that no longer serve you, that hold you back or are blocking your new desired life….

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